time for inner feelings (mode: senti)
Monday, April 2nd, 2007will it be right for me to create a new post to see the whole world what i really feel? luckily, this feeling doesn’t consume me, unlike to what is happening to my dear dear friend. 
for the past five months, since i started writing letters all addressed to this person, i stopped crying and hoping. i will never deny that i still think of him, everybody says its a nonsense thing to do, but what i feel is true and at this moment, its the only one that is real. i already accepted that he cannot reciprocate the special feelings that i got for him, and to whatever thing we have right now, it will be a forever thing, nothing more nothing less and its not going anywhere. loving him probably is just on my mind, sorry then, my mind works 24/7.
i am tired of myself talking to people about him, if ever i will open up this (AGAIN) to my friends, i know, i will receive their puzzling stares…. and disgust.
for him: what other people see in you, isn’t the same with what i see… i wont be waiting for you.
my next move? burn this feeling BUT let me savor it first.
