l-u-s-t-r-o-u-s
last night, my cousin and his gf went out for a couple of beers. we had this strange conversation. rus started asking about my ways… why am i still seeing this guy, why do i go out and see married or attached people, how long have we been like this, and why am i not yet commited and so forth. those questions made me think. then i realized there’s nothing i can do about my current situation. joan asked me (wasn’t the first time) how come i am ok even almost everyday shit happens and people fool around and i let myself to be their victims. well, all i can do is accept certain facts, live with them and so on. i no longer have to be the drama queen….I AM NO LONGER THE DRAMA QUEEN! in fact, my last week was great. four days in boracay, four days of thinking nothing but what and where to eat, what to do next, which bar is for the night. remembering flyfish "hold for your life", atv "your life is in your hands", banana boat ride "you can chill without holding but you have to be cautious of the sharp turn in any minute", sailing "relax, take a deep breath, reflect" and puca beach "you cannot hold you beauty for long"… life really has its own will, different twists and sometimes intense turns. my first ever missed feb fair, since 2002. but i do not have any regrets anyway. hahaha feeling ko naman kasi wala talaga ko namiss, except for long lost friends like ben.
hay. that’s my life. as of now, i want a steady life. and im excited to find a new home, hopefully, to stay there for at least three months. almost every month, something is happening to me and it is always related to where i stay. i should start living on my own, the hell to have a steady life.
i’ve been in the dark for the past few weeks. but now, i am brighter, better, shinier than ever. I AM OK NOW. people, i am ok now, but not necessarily mean im still the old mylene (im so sorry cheni, the mylene you are looking for has been gone for quite long time, MABAIT NA TALAGA KO EH ha ha ha).
*a big thanks to little francis 
