i’ve been thinking of you, we have this thing, no, its just me having this thing exclusively right for you. what scares me most? you, saying "i do". everywhere i go, i always hope we’ll bump into each other then we’ll do this thing.
ok. he’s getting married, the other just got married, and he (but im not thinking of him) is married. what’s happening? maybe i should refrain myself from meeting 28+ years old men if i don’t wanna end up marrying at 22 or k*b**. =)
here’s to happy married life, cheers!
batang elbi pa nga ba ko? hmmmm… masasabi kong batang elbi pa din ako kung….
*uso pa din sakin ang one for the road
*kumikita sakin ang loata loka
*hindi ako nawawalan ng kasama
*kumakain pa ko kay tita amy
*natutulog ako ng 6am dahil sa trabaho at inum
*natutulog ako at least 10 hours
*wala akong pera bwehehe
*flip flops at skirt lang araw araw ayos na
*hindi ko nakikita si lean, kitchie at mabbik
*nakakapanood pko teleserye (majika ‘to hihi)
*kumakain ako at least 5 times a day
*isang kaha nayoyosi ko araw araw
*hindi nawawalang ng yosi buddy
*may tambayan para magyosi
*hindi ko namimiss si lei at bebhe ko
*bawal ang thursday night na mag isa
*marami akong nakakain na pancit canton
*maraming listeners (nagtitiyaga lang pala) sa jokes ko
*ok lang kahit hindi umuwi ng silang
*hindi pwedeng hindi unlimited
pero sa tingin ko, kahit lahat ng bagay na yun ay hindi ko na nagagawa, masasabi ko pa din batang elbi ako, kasi naman, ang elbi, binabalikan at pagbalik magagawa ko ulit ang mga yun. hindi naman nawawala sa isip ko ang elbi at lalo na sa salita ika nga ng panatang makabayan sisikapin ang pagiging isang tunay na pilipino sa isip, sa salita at sa gawa.. parang elbi. bwehehehehe
isa lang naman masasabi ko. sobrang namimiss ko ang elbi
from the 40th floor, a glimpse of so-called beauty and madness of life is very real. the beauty of buildings and busy streets 40 floors down is real and if i wanted to end the magnificence of life, a big window in front of me will be a huge favor, but im not into it.
and from where i stood and sat, i saw my life. never a moment edsa has been free of cars, the unfamiliar sound of mrt is now a common hum as if its a part of me. a superb weekend was spent there, with familiar people, i wished it never ended. and i know it wasn’t the last, it was indeed a 3-day celebration of unknown event (Lopez, 2006), just friday the 13th. we had a couple of RH and RC that night, movies and tuna the morning after. then the night came easily, until we realized that no nobody is up to buy something to drink so it became a basic instinct night! but its how we ended our celebration was i guess the best, we started around 2pm until secrets were revealed and stories were told.
then it was a hell monday for me, thanks to jeff, boyet, bri and dus!
do you understand the words that are coming out of my mouth? do you understand the words that are coming out of my mouth? do you understand the words that are coming out of my mouth?
these were jha’s words. what the f*ck jhajha! bargasan na naman?! alas singko pa lang ng umaga! pero salamat ng madami at pinilit mo na bumangon sa napakasarap na kama. dalawa lang naman ang rason kung bakit masarap sa kama, isa na dito ay pag lasing ka, ung isa ikaw na bahala!
kagabi, si ana banana banana, bob, o anuman ay nagpasaya na naman ng mga uhaw na uhaw na mga tao. sabik ang lahat para sa pagbabalik sa los baños, 2002 pa ata huling naggaling ang tropa sa elbi, ganun pa din ang rason, selebrasyon para sa nalalapit na kaarawan ni bob.
para hindi makalimutan:
taong 2002: mariakrizette (kasama si ****, o wala na yun, bati na tayong lahat), leaandrea (kasama si big bro), mariaellaine. josephandrew, carlojune, arianneabigail, rowenagrace, dulceapple. annaria(japs). cosme(ha?john marvic), maebernadette, nakalimutankona. syempreandundinmgasissesko. isis bar. sanmiglight. lasing. estudyante. sembreak. bakasyon.
taong 2006: mariakrizette. mariaellaine. jacqueline. arianneabigail. maebernadette. annaria. josephandrew. irishcaezar. andunpadinmgasissesko. strongice. tequila. sigarilyo. lbsquare. isis. icedcoffee. kanin/lechonkawali. manila-losbaños-manila. trabaho. saloobng8oras.
wala pa ala sais nakasakay na ulit kami ng bus pabalik ng maynila, bawal mag usap, pagkakataon na matulog. nakakapagod, nakakaantok. pero ayos lang. sumaya naman kaming lahat. yung mga hindi sumama, sayang.
you didn’t tell me you’re getting married. months ago i asked you, you said not yet, too young to get married. last week i had the same dream and i told you that….
…happiest part? no response. now i know. goodluck!
"i never thought loving someone with all your heart and soul will only make you weak… but then god is good. heart problem wasn’t the biggest problem i ever had… pero sobrang sakit tlaga… mejo drama,as in… he isn’t my ideal man, but he remains in my heart, an exemption, as always! and i cant forget to remember him…."
lots of things can be done when your boss is not around or there’s no need to hurry things….
while i was checking my sent items, i notiiced that my oldest sent message stored was this month but three years ago! sent to the person i used to be with. there’s no need to mention his name since i think everybody knows this person, but i dont want to hear kitchie or lean singin sa kanya pa rin babalik… anyway, it was only yesterday that i wrote something about new stuff, what i can say is that im no longer the same person i used to be three years ago
im posting some of my letters, of course with a little alteration
sat, oct 4, 2003 2:22am
grabe talaga, i never ever felt this way before… mixed emotions, i no longer know if im mad girl or a martyr! sobra, im so sick and tired of everything, yet im still here mailing and texting you! time will come..
can we go back to the days our love was strong… can somebody tell me how our perfect love goes wrong…can you tell me how to get things back the way they used to be.. oh god give me a reason im down on bendedknees…"
but im not telling you these things as if im hoping, i just want you to feel the hurt you brought…. i can no longer study, im too absorbed by you! you’re becoming a syndrome… its so hard to get you out of my damn system…………… **************** so do you think we can be together again? ********** if the pain is gone…………… ****** hope not to see you again!
i sat here and read those emails, cant help not to reminisce, feels good remebering what it was years ago. other s may fnd it corny or something. OR MAY EVEN JUDGE ME (anu un?hehehe) but there’s more…
Tue, 20 Jul 2004 08:46:34
im wondering what the hell are we…….. i asked god to please help me, and lessen the bitterness blah blah blah i miss you so bad! im back again on my sentiments, and hindi ko pa din matanggap blah blah blah way back freshman year? haha taxt message yung proposal mo
Mon, 23 Aug 2004 04:51:31
i havent read this letter after i posted it in our groups a month ago, well then, god really is great, things changed, pero hindi pala tlaga madali maklimutan lahat, i admire ur strenght ****, so who am i to you? ahhhhhhhhhhhh ive moved on but im not yet over you, over us.. di ko tlaga alam, mahirap oo, nagagalit na naman ako, how could you hurt me so …. but im trying to understand things, blah blah blah, di tlaga kita mkklimutan makagetover manlang sayo, im having one of the best days in my life. and i know i will have more. blah blah blah blah. kaw pala ha, kinakamusta ko ni nanay pero dedma ka jan. blah blah its depressing to let go of someone hus been part of your life, part of your system.
those were the days, i was badly hurt. like wat i was telling bob yesterday, millions of people has been hurt, physically and emotionally but then theres the big T as in time to heal all wounds. =) si bob kasi eh sotsab. now we’re good friends, so kitch and le could still sing sa kanya pa rin babalik, and my comfort zone is with him and with other guys out there, (joke) anjan mga bonds eh!
"i never thought loving someone with all your heart and soul will only make you weak… but then god is good. heart problem wasn’t the biggest problem i ever had… pero sobrang sakit tlaga… mejo drama,as in… he isn’t my ideal man, but he remains in my heart, an exemption, as always! and i cant forget to remember him…."
-the truth is, i posted this two years ago with a breaking heart, now im reading it with a happy heart
no boss around, alone in the office, my mind’s getting dirty, thinking what else can i do. hmmm… then i remember someone..hahahahaha i better check my mail and other accounts. then i got this mail from my sis about about MEN! i already received this kind of email years ago, ehem, lets say im very much younger that time and it didnt catch my attention… 2 weeks ago, i got a this text message about men, (that is still in my inbox) why most of women (actually it says, 80%) are against marriage and its because women realize that its not worth buying an entire pig just to get a little sausage. the same exact words are there and it didnt end there, there are comparisons only to find myself smiling and agreeing (to some). kitch will definitely like this ehehehe
guys, don’t be offended ok? and cheers to us!
1. bananas - the older they get, scientifically proven and not based from experience, the less firm they are
2. weather - like women, nothing can be done to change them
3. commercials - like mark dejan, words they say are unbelievable
4. popcorn - they tend to satisfy you and but only for a little while
5. laxatives - they irritate the crap out of you.
6. blenders - you need one, but you’re not quite sure why, i dont have one literally or not
7. chocolate bars - sweet, smooth, & they usually head right for your hips. thats why i dont eat much of this =)
8. department stores - Their clothes are always 1/2 off.
9. government bonds - They take soooooooo long to mature.
10. mascara - hey usually run at the first sign of emotion. better use clear mascara
11. snowstorms - you never know when they’re coming, how many inches you’ll get or how long it will last!!!!
12. lava lamps - fun to look at, but not very bright.
lastly and definitely true….
13. parking spots - all the good ones are taken, the rest are handicapped
baka sakali lang naman.
lemme see if this october will bring good things… my heart says yes and my mind says no, but then…. god knows..
well, can i still do things ive done for the past two months?
…august….
1. had a good rest, good as in sleep all day and drink all night. a real break, Ive been busy for the past 22 years!
2. (Until now, I still don’t know if i really) lost a chapter of my life, I highly regret but then i made a choice and up to this minute and sticking into it.
3. bonding moments with mae, floi and kuya edmund
4. baguio is a favorable place to a new me (yeah, baguio boys! hahaha)
5. skirts
…september…
1. mama’s favorite. overnight in cavite, rest of the nights, qc or lb
2. mabbbik, mabbik and mabbik
3. one tree hill addiction
4. new work
5. bye bye marlboro lights
im on my third day of my third job. so far not good. and im fine. how can start a new life if everything will be just like before.
sana lang tumagal ako dito sa trabaho kong bago… <sigh> and this new job will bring me new life yuhoo…
